Well, it would seem I’m back to blogging. My last post in September talked about discovering I had parasites. I go for the next blood test tomorrow to see if we’ve made any progress in eradicating them. I’m thinking not. The natural supplement that would ordinarily be used would likely cause constant migraines. However, over the past two years, I’ve lost 34 lbs, and can’t seem to regain, no matter how much food I eat! I’m in an unhealthy weight range and it has been taxing to my system. Not sure what we’re going to do, but something has to change.
Since about mid-October, my energy levels took a nosedive, as they have for several years now. I don’t know why this happens, but this year has been the most severe. I’ve really had to learn to NOT do stuff, and just rest. This has been very difficult for me, however, I am learning. This Fall, I finally resigned myself to the non-working crowd – not even part-time, from home. This has been a bit sad for me, but it has also released me to think of what else I might do when I feel well. More on that in a moment.
I think I’ve mentioned I’ve also been going through some emotional struggles for about 1-1/2 years trying to figure out some issues from my abusive childhood. I had been working through it on my own, but finally recognized I needed to have help in putting these things into perspective. Lutherwood in Cambridge is a fantastic place, and I cannot say enough good things about them. I was paired with a Christian counsellor, and went to 11 sessions. They adjusted the pay rate to what we could afford, which helped tremendously. I had 6 people praying for me for each session, and God moved mightily during this time using this avenue for healing. I still have issues to work out, but I do feel so much better now, and again feel like I can engage in life in a more productive way.
One of the things I rediscovered about myself is my artistic nature. I was one of those kids who made up songs while playing in the yard in the summer. My grandma used to make macaroni art with me. I spent the winter months – whenever it was too severe for us to play outside – drawing all kinds of things. I always did well in art class in elementary school. But in my family, practicality was revered and creativity was not. I laugh when I think about this because my grandfather was a great photographer, and how he reconciled that purely artistic hobby with practicality, I’ll never know. My aunt uses her creativity to produce stunning church banners – even one for the national Lutheran Church Canada convention a number of years ago. And, maybe that is more practical than artistic. So in my mid-teens, I set aside my artistic expression for more practical pursuits.
But my writing always gets such positive comments. There are times I’m sure I’ve gone the wrong direction on something and seek correction, and yet any corrections are minor. This has always surprised me. I have finally come to realize the depth of the gift God has given to me. To Him be the glory! I’ve also recently restarted my drawing. I’m not very good yet, but I found an online course I hope will help. I have done a few pieces, and the hubby was amazed at how good the one drawing was. I may never get to be “really” good, but I will do it for the enjoyment, and hopefully will touch people through my drawing too. I know people have “met God” through my photography, so maybe there is another avenue to touch people’s hearts and faith. And by expressing myself artistically, I have also seen emotional healing, and that is something I can really use! God is good.
So, again, I rededicate myself to keeping up with my blog writing, as well as other writing. Sorry to have left you all for so long.
Until next time, love one another…
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